Today was surprisingly, a good day. While life is not perfect, I feel like hopefully, everything is in an upward swing, rather than a downward spiral. It’s nice to have something to look forward to.
I had a job interview yesterday. After filling out tons of applications and not hearing back from anyone, I was really excited to get the call for the interview. I didn’t want to get my hopes up, though, just in case I didn’t get the job. But today, I received a call and was offered the job.
This new job is going to involve a lot of change for me. I will now be working nights and despite being a night owl, it still makes me nervous. I’m having to change my complete routine. On the other hand, it will be so nice to leave a job that wasn’t healthy for me, mentally or emotionally. Hopefully, the shaking that I have been living with constantly, will go away and my hair will stop falling out.
I feel like this could be a step in the right direction. It’s a big change, but I’m hoping that working nights, will allow me to go back to school so I can finish my degree. I’m hoping that this step will allow me to follow my dream.
I am also taking a step by seeing my doctor. I am having a full physical done as well as blood work. It’s been a couple of years and I figured I should rule out some medical issues because I have decided to see a psychiatrist. I feel that after 3 years of attempting to resolve my depression with only my therapist, with little results, it’s time I tried anew. I am hesitant about this step because of my previous misfortunes with psychiatrist, but this time I am hoping to find one that I like.
I will be recounting to you, my current experiences with medication and treatment as they occur. I’m hopeful that this time around, we will find something that works.